The Great Between

How often do we begin a project just to drop it.... or start a book and get bored 1/2 way through?? I am so disappointed in myself over and over again for my lack of drive. Do you struggle with motivation, self-worth and lets be honest down right laziness?? I too am a millennial fighting to break the mold of this privileged and sometimes self righteous stereotype. What is it with our generation and the mindset that it will all be given to us or that we don't have to work for what we have. I learned at a very young ago that I must work and I must do it hard if I want to have things. Surprisingly I love to work but I still find myself stuck trying to make it all happen.... Do you know what I figured out? I'm trying to do too many things at full capacity! We can't give 100% to everything! Eventually, you will find that something is going to suffer.

So, right now I find myself in the great between.... Trying to find my groove! I am a stay at home mom and while I love being in control of my schedule and having the luxury to create my own routine, it can bog me down at times. I find myself once again putting my dreams and goals in a dusty, cluttered back closet because my schedule is full of baseball, school functions, church, cleaning, grocery shopping, cleaning some more, cooking, laundry (how could I almost forget that one) and on top of all that, I'm just trying to be somewhat put together as a human. I want to be present and make my family a priority…. after all that was a huge reason I didn’t rejoin the work force after my first born.

I have spent a long time going back and forth about ME. Am I selfish to have dreams? Am I too old to redefine myself? Am I an ungrateful wife to want more than staying at home?

These are the questions I’ve asked myself and recently been brave enough to discuss with my husband. Do you know what he told me?…. Go for it. The only thing hold you back is you. I didn’t at all expect him to react the way he did but alas, I often underestimate him. So, the answer to these questions of self doubt are “No”:

No. I’m not too old to go for it!

No. I’m not selfish!

I am in the beautiful space that I am calling “The great between”…. I can choose to do whatever I want and I choose to follow my dreams. I choose to make my family apart of it all!

What are your dreams?...

Go chase them!

XO - Denisha