Oh my goodness, I have been fighting sickness all week! I have a Sinus infection which feels more like a terrible case of the flu! I never knew your sinuses could make your whole body beg for mercy! None the less... due to this unfortunate circumstance, I missed writing on Tuesday! No, Tuesday Tidbit!! I'm sorry! I've asked for my families forgiveness more this week than ever before. You never realize how much you rely on Mama until she's bedridden....mmmhhhmmmm!

So, wow! What a Month January was for me! As promised in my resolution blog, I am here to tell you more about my book. If you recall, my second goal for 2019 was to "see my book through" Now, the complete process is not finished but my book has now gone to edit!!! *JAZZ Hands* I'm so excited and still pinching myself but it is true! I finally finished after a year and a half of writing, deleting, rewriting, giving up, starting over, feeling incompetent, surviving on coffee and writing some more. Before the Year is over, I will be a published Author which is a dream come true.

Not everyone knows my testimony and if I shared it now, you wouldn't want to read the book so I will just say..... If you have ever felt unworthy of God's grace or love in your life, you need to read my book!..... I was there too, sometimes I fall back into that trap but I remember that He cares about me and He wants the best for me. I don't want to waste my time wanting what someone else has, I want to spend my time giving all God has blessed me with back to Him and using the story he wrote for me as a light to illuminate someone else's path. The Bible pictured below is the one my husband gifted me with for Christmas. Now, it might more sense to everyone why I was so emotional over this Beautiful handprinted Bible. It will always hold a special place in my once not so sentimental heart. I am becoming more and more attached to things because I have opened my heart to care more about everything around me.

We also finished an extremely exhausting remodel in our Sanctuary but it was totally worth it! I am so proud of all the men, women, boys and girls who took their weekends and nights to VOLUNTEER their time for their Church. We are blessed to Pastor such a giving group of people. My husband and I just celebrated our 7 Year Pastoral Anniversary this past Sunday and the remodel was such a great gift! I am thankful, so thankful that I get to raise my boys at Faith Tabernacle United Pentecostal Church. These people love until it hurts and we welcome anyone and everyone to be a part of our growing family!

So, back to my book... It has been a long ride. Lots of coffee, lots of self doubt, lots of pep talks, lots of "at a girl, you got this", so much love and support.... Then a husband that says things like "Babe, you were meant for this all you have to do is believe you can and do it!".... He is too good for me but somehow, I got him???? God orchestrated every single step and placed all the right people in my path to help encourage me along the way. Since November of 2018, I've been working really hard on this personal project, I even spent a week retreating in Pigeon Forge to focus completely. Most of my time writing was in my recliner, wrapped in a blanket while my kids were at School. I sat in carline speaking into my iPhone voice recorder as ideas would pop in my head then going back and listening thinking I might need voice lessons if this turns into an Audiobook or Podcast of any sort because I sound like a little stuffy nosed girl! It seems like a million little things came up in our lives while I was finishing this project and do you ever notice your children behavior going off the charts when you are trying to follow a dream for you that doesn't center around them? My kids fought and wrestled more the past 4 Months than ever before... Like, I literally HATE wrestling. I'm going to get it handled though. No big deal. Mom is going to handle it.

I can't wait to show you what God did through my brokenness but until then, just keep following the stories on my blog. This is just the beginning and that excites my spirit! This book is my baby birthed from a great deal of pain and with it came healing and the endurance for future projects!

My family is my life. They have been patient and supportive during this process of writing. My boys are so excited and ask me about my book all the time and that makes my heart swell. I know with them and God, I can accomplish anything. Thank you for taking this journey with me!

XO -Nisha